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husband and made some really, not-so-wise choices such as driving and alcohol consumption.  

To think there was an entity that I could not see that was assigned to me for five years (at that time) to protect me, I was boggled, really.  I asked her why she was with me for all of that time and she simply told me “because he loves you”.  By now, we were about seven hours into our Ouija Board session and I was getting rather sarcastic here (at that time I was still not sure if one of us was really pushing around that little pudding cup we used as a planchette) and said out loud “ohh someone loves me, how nice, who loves me?”  In my mind, all I could think of was god.  Even though I grew up Catholic, my allegiance has always been to God, not to Jesus or his mom, though I liked them a lot too.  She spelled out “Jesus loves you.”  Huh?  What does he have to do with anything?  Was this simply to prove I was not doing this of my own accord or did Jesus have something to do with making sure no one was killed in my DUI moments? 

As I pressed her on for an explanation of why she said Jesus instead of God she simply spelled out “rest now”.  NO!!!!!  Granted, it was now 3 a.m. and we have been doing this for eight straight hours, but you cannot leave me on a cliffhanger.  I need more information.  That was not going to happen on this life-changing evening.  She stopped communicating and the Ouija Board grew still.

Try as I might, I never got my homemade Ouija Board to work again.  I had to go online to figure out how to communicate with spirits.  The only thing that kept coming back to me was meditation.  Ok, I am in; I want to talk to Jill again and get the rest of the story.

Meditation Helped Me to Realize the Hell My Mind was Trapped In.

Wow, anyone who says learning to meditate is easy, is a liar!!  This has been the single most difficult journey I ever embarked on.  However, my desire to get the rest of the story from Jill put me on a determined path that I never would have embarked on otherwise. 

Trying to learn meditation really allowed me to see what sort of thoughts were on my mind.   Ohhh my God, no wonder I was consistently depressed.  My thoughts were always not nice!  Worry, fear, more worry, bigger fear, that was the landscape of my mind!

Breath by conscious breath I wiped out those insidious thoughts to allow the flow of true spiritual communication to take place.  It allowed my mind to awaken to the greater reality I call Spirit.  Since I quit my job and had a lot of free time on my hands, I was trying to meditate up to five times a day.  I would get so incredibly frustrated and have to get out of meditation (god knows my mind was a train wreck in those times) and try again later when I was not frustrated any longer.

As I started to get control of my mind, I could feel my body was healing, my depression was lifting, I started to become very aware of my anger and when I was about to have a detrimental eruption on my child(ren).  I meditated even more.  Sometimes up to ten hours in a given day.  I found an online spiritual forum that helped to hold my hand during those days, as well as help me understand the many amazing and sometimes startling things I was experiencing within meditation.  I am so grateful for those folks.

I find it funny that the only motivation that I had in doing this hard thing called meditating was to understand why Jesus had anything to do with Jill being with me for five years.  As I started to communicate with Jill and Ramus, (Ramus is my Lifetime guide who had been with me this entire lifetime, and then some) it no longer even mattered.  The only thing that started to matter to me was healing my mind, my body and my life.  I could feel the profound changes that were taking place.  Jill and Ramus allowed me to see within myself the places that needed to be addressed to get myself out of “Victim mode” and into “I feel blessed that these people were in my life mode.”  There is no part of our lives, no matter how painful they may have felt to move through, that have not been an incredible blessing to us.

I started to really hit the core of why I was so incredibly dysfunctional, and my childhood only amplified what I was already feeling from birth.  However, finding this core took a little extra help.  The Blessed Mother (Jesus’ mom) showed up in my meditations and I was in such disbelief that I kept trying to send her away.  I was sure I was making this part up, but every time I entered meditation, there she was saying one single phrase “Lord I am not worthy to receive you” and then it hit me!  My life started in the Catholic Church.  My mother told me God lived at church, so even as a little girl of five years old; I went to church every single week, most often without my family.  I loved God so much and just wanted to be wherever He was.  (For those who are not Catholic, the above line is part of the prayer that is said prior to taking communion.)

The root of my anger, the source of the dysfunction was less about my crazy childhood, but the belief that no matter what I did, I would never be worthy of God’s love and I truly loved God.  My childhood simply reinforced the feeling that no matter what I do, God cannot love you.  (I was raised in the foster system and by people willing to take me in, instilling the thought that if my own family didn’t love me, why would God love me.)  However, that early beginning was setting me up for the rest of my life.  When you live in the foster system and move in and out of families, you are forced to build ties to complete strangers.  Today, there is no such thing as a stranger, just a family member I am getting to know.

A couple of days after releasing the unworthiness that my church instilled within me and the purging of that deep, deep hurt that flowed out in gallons of tears, the Blessed Mother appeared to me again.  This time I did not try to force her out of my inner vision, instead I listened intently trying to understand why she is back again. 

Everything You Believe About Yourself and the World Around You is
Based on Someone Else’s Ideas About Reality!

This time, the Blessed Mother asked me “To lay down all your beliefs so you can be filled with the truth of spirit.”  Holy cow batman, that is close to impossible to do!  In trying to do just that, erase all the things someone else told me about life, about myself, about my children, I started to realize that everything I believed about the world and myself came from what others told me.  How do you just wipe that out?  After days of struggling to lay it all down and wipe out all that others have told me about myself, my children and the world around me, I gave up.  I had no idea how to undo a lifetime of believing what others have said.  I did the only thing I could think of doing, I called on the energy of the Blessed Mother myself and simply stated with a heart so incredibly true “I am willing to lay down all my beliefs, but I don’t know how to do that.  Please, please, help me”.  To this day, I have no idea what she did or how, and truthfully, I do not care.  All I know is that in a single instant, it was as if she took a gutting knife, and went from the top of my chest down to the base of my abdomen and cut me open (a feeling that did not hurt, but was weirdly uncomfortable) and I could feel things leaving me. 

As soon as meditation was over and I stood up to get my bearings, I felt so completely empty inside, hollow even.  I had no sense of identity, no sense of my relationship to the world around me, to say it was the strangest as well as the most unpleasant feeling would be an understatement.  However, it was the greatest gift I ever allowed myself to have, and I honor the Blessed Mother with that profound gift she gave to me!

From that day forward, I became a vessel for spiritual information to flow through me and out of me.  I became so incredibly well, both physically and emotionally.  All I wanted to do was let people know that there is a better way to get through life. One that is permanently life changing and healing in every way.  As you heal, all life around you changes and heals.  My children were now the benefactors of my changes instead of what I had considered the victims of my dysfunction!

Somewhere in the midst of talking to my now growing (in number) spiritual team (which includes Jesus who has taught me, and continues to teach me, all I know to date about healing the energetic body and how to work within it), I simply told them I want to be able to knock on everyone’s door and tell people there is a way to be completely healed from depression, insomnia, S.A.D., ulcers and everything, really.  My team would simply smile and say “Healer, Heal Thyself” and my healing journey continued for the next couple of years.  I do want to mention that I have been absolutely depression free, S.A.D. free for close to 8 years now.  My ulcers have completely healed and joy is the only thing I feel 24/7 no matter what appears to be happening around me. 

Not only did I heal myself completely (over years not days or months) but the beautiful side affect, my children were instantly healing their dysfunctions without even trying.  This healing energy flows in all directions, if you heal the past, the present has to be already healed including everyone in it!!

Teaching What I Learned

In March of 2003, two and a half years after the start of my journey into healing in the most profound and complete way, I started a website.  I started to share my stories, my experiences.  People started to email me and ask me for help.  I started to share with anyone who asked what I knew about meditation, how to effectively move around in this new and vast inner environment.  I started to learn how to do what I refer to as “email readings” connecting to a person’s soul energy while still connected to their earth energy to see what they need to address within themselves.  My clientele grew from a few people a week to 25-30 people a week, and the majority of these people said I was spot on and wanted to know how to start their healing process.  That gave birth to my next great adventure, the Spiritual Development Course.

This course gave me the most incredible privilege of experiencing people’s healing, and feeling their energy move from insecure and chaotic to assured and self-empowered.    I was (and continue to be) humbled to be so close to anyone choosing to change within themselves. 

In teaching others how to heal, I learned so many ways of healing on a more profound level within myself.  I started to learn healing outside of meditation.  I started to become very sensitive to the vibrations of people both on the computer (my course was a one on one internet course) and that trickled into being able to feel vibrations “in person”. 

I learned how to connect at the soul level of being, to bring information forth from the soul aspect.  All because people wanted to heal and I wanted to help show them how to be the change they desired, and I am grateful for every living being that has allowed me to connect with them (both in the seen and unseen worlds of Life).  My life has utterly changed and became enhanced by every single soul who ever sought me out.  In helping others, I never realized how much I was helping myself, until I started to look back over my shoulder of the path I was walking. 

As my soul agenda started to live out its purpose, my own personal life started changing by the minute.  The grander my vision became (let’s call it spiritually downloaded thoughts and ideas) the more my life changed.  I changed locations at least four times in three years; from Vermont to Idaho to Iowa to where I am now, Virginia.  Each time aligning myself with people who could see a greater vision… a community centered healing / sharing place.  One that was souly brought together by spiritual insights instead of human agendas.  When one group of people disembarked because the vision seemed too big and too hard and they were caught up in fear and status quo, I was lead elsewhere.  I would then meet up with a new group of people, as well as a new set of potentials.  It wasn’t until I came to visit my son in VA did it all start to come together.

I never ever gave up on the idea that we could have a very, very healing, nourishing place that was centered in love and well-being; I just had to keep aligning with new people.  I have the wisdom, the ability to hear Spirit quite clearly.  I just didn’t have the money to make it happen.  If I did, I would have never asked anyone for help, and that would take away from the community potential of coming together to create a shared vision.

One very special Being that allowed this vision to become reality is my best friend and business partner Peggy.  She was not already in Virginia; she was in a Boston suburb.  She started out as one of my students who joined the Spiritual Development Course and thrived from her own efforts to learn and heal.  After 2 years of our internet communication and our role that moved from teacher and student to equals and emerging best friends, she realized where she lived no longer fit her growing spirit.  She came to a massive crossroads in her life.  Peggy was now being prompted from her spiritual team to move to Virginia.

She had to reach deep inside of herself to state to the universe, I don’t know what I am getting myself into, but I trust you enough to take me there.  She moved to Virginia in February 2008 without a plan in sight.  She quit her job, sold her house and set up home in Virginia to be closer to me and embark 24/7 on her spiritual journey.  She knew she had gone as far as she could in her (then) present situation.

I had tried to launch this magazine about two years ago, then called “Conscious Living” but let me tell you, publishing is not cheap!  Peggy agreed to financially back the magazine with the money she had made from the sale of her house.  In May 2008 The Wonder of You magazine was born.  I was sure advertisers would rally around to support this uplifting, illuminating publication.  Little did I realize that there are actually people out there who are offended to see me put Jesus and Buddha in the same sentence, forget all this other self empowering, let’s not follow but lead information that is contained in this magazine.  Many advertisers became afraid of aligning themselves with this “New Age” magazine and I soon realized advertisers are hard to come by, coupled with an economy that is changing.  So right now, when we publish 5,000 copies of The Wonder of You, Peggy backs it by writing a check for $3,300 so all could share in the wisdom and hope that is this magazine.

However, after the first issue of the Magazine, spirit had a bigger vision of how we could be in service in our community.  Build a Life Enhancement Center.  Teach people how they work and how to facilitate healing on a complete level of understanding and Being.  After a moment of hesitation (remember, she has no job, just the money from the sale of her home in MA) she said she would put the money in that was needed to build and open the Center.  In July 2008, we signed the lease that would become The Wonder of You Life Enhancement Center.  In September of 2008, we opened our doors for business.  We had a financial game plan set to remain open, and then the National News announced we were in a recession.  Oh my, not good news for business.  The Dow Jones industrial average was on a downward spiral, the $60 we set for an hour massage was no longer happening, we were lucky to be doing 5-6 massages a week.  Peggy had to cash in her 401K to keep the Center alive.  We dropped our prices to $40 an hour for a massage and business picked up.  People started to see what we were doing and how, our staff grew, our clientele and support for the Center grew.

Spirit had asked me through a meditation to incorporate the business and file for non-profit status.  We needed a board of directors to do this, and people aligned themselves with the vision that was now unfolding.

The majority of our board of directors has lived the very change that is propagated by the teachings of my very humble and very non-conformist “Spiritual Development Course” (which I have since renamed to “Remembering Who You Are and How You Work”.  Yes, a longer name, but really more clearly defined, since you are already a very well developed Spiritual Being, you just need a way to remember what that even means to you!  We named the corporation “The Foundation for Conscious Living, Inc.” and are awaiting federal approval for our 501(c)3 status.

We were excited to see business accelerate until we realized at the rates we set for our services, we cannot break even.  Every week we were taking a financial loss even though it appeared business was steady, or at the very least, busy.  We will not ever overwork our wonderful massage therapists to squeeze in an extra $40; we require them to have 30 minutes to rejuvenate themselves between clients.  Their health and wellbeing is essential, too.  So what does one do when in such a situation? Ask spirit what to do next!! 

Here We are in March of 2009; Out of Money and Spirit Comes in with an Even Broader Vision.

Spirit knows that money is simply money, it comes and goes and goes and comes, constantly recycling itself where ever needs are stated and hearts are open to receive it.  (Keep in mind money does not always come in the form of dollar bills, but sometimes, actually oftentimes, ideas, inspirations, other people and grander visions of what could be.)

This particular broader vision came via my son breaking his leg.  Yes, so many incredible blessings and insights come from what appears to be painful events.  In fact, that is where most inspirations come from.  (So now celebrate the present state of the economy, the blessings through it all is already enormous!)

My son, being uninsured and now unable to work (he did work for the Center because his money-making profession as a Residential and Commercial Painter sort of dried up in the last year), now had to come up with what seemed to be like an enormous amount of money in order to get the plate and screws needed to hold his tibia (calf bone) in place for complete healing.  Granted for some people the dollar amount of $2500 doesn’t seem enormous, but when you have a negative balance in the bank and a mom (me) trying to figure out where to raises prices so her business can survive, $25 seems like an enormous amount to raise in order to get healed.

Now let me back up just a moment.  In one of our board meetings for the Center we talked about establishing a program called “Random Acts of Charitable Kindness” or the RACK program where we would solicit donations from people and put it in a holding account to help people in need.  Of course, we were busy waiting to become a 501(c)3 (non profit organization) to bring that into life, even though spirit said to me there is nothing that can be manifested in the energy of waiting, it simply begets more waiting.  My son had to be the very force that got the energy of this program moving.  He broke his leg, we love him so much that we wanted to do something and the Random Acts of Chartable Kindness program was born (call this a forced birth lol).  Of course, we have not gotten that name (UPDATE - We officially have this name now!!) legally in our portfolio of businesses housed under The Foundation for Conscious Living, Inc., so that name may change depending on availability.  Nonetheless, the energy of it was birthed.  I put up a page on the website with a donations link, and a donations jar in the Center and asked people to help my son, Chris, raise the $2500 of up-front money he needed to start his leg mending properly.  In under a week and a half, people from all around this wonderful country put aside the fact that we are supposedly in a recession and that they have no tax deduction (as of this date) at the end of the year for their charitable kindness. Instead, they opened their hearts and their wallets and made sure Chris had his surgery.  Moreover, he did.  Keep this thought in mind, a “recession” can only happen when people are separated from each other.  Where unity of heart is, a recession cannot exist, no matter what it appears like on the outside.

Was the lesson done in knowing at the core of my Being that people in this United States of America care more about each other than the fear propaganda that is present?  Oh… not by a long shot. 

The Fear Foundation of our “Traditional Healing Facilities”

It is now the day of my son’s surgery (March 12th) and I forgot the business checkbook at the Center.  I needed to pay $860 upfront for him to be able to use the operating room, which was ok because we had collected all the up-front money needed through the Center.  His life partner, Steffi, got him to the hospital and went through all of the check-in arrangements with him and they immediately took him back to pre-op (can I tell you how impressed I am with the quickness of this process at a hospital!)  Unfortunately for me, hospitals have new rules.  Only one person is allowed to hold a family member’s hand prior to surgery at a time, and you cannot switch this person out (who ever is there, is there for the duration).  It doesn’t matter that his surgery is still two hours away, rules are rules.

Of course, the mom in me surfaced and then the anger surfaced.  When I asked why I could not go back and be with my son, they said someone was already there and we have to respect his privacy.  Huh?  What could possibly be so private that I cannot be there with him?  At the very least, why is it that Steffi could not come out for a moment while I go in and give him a hug? 

I didn’t wait around for answers, I was too angry and I figured this is not a great energy to hold while in a hospital.  I went to my car dazed and confused.  For 26 years, I have had children (especially my son) in and out of hospitals, waiting rooms, ER’s and never ever have I been told that a patient can only choose one person to be at their side.  When I got my gallbladder out, my husband and my children were all there to hold my hand and comfort my heart before surgery.  I would have had it no other way.

Not in today’s age.  I sat in my car dumbfounded, texting Steffi and my son and they were apologizing (as if it was their fault) for this taking place. Steffi and my son were trying to talk to the nurses back in pre-op to allow me to be present, I knew deep inside it was a battle that was not going to be won.  What made me feel worse about it all was Steffi felt guilty because of her feeling that I should have been there instead of her.  I so wholeheartedly disagree.  Chris loves her so much, and he loves me so much, no patient should ever have to experience any of these feelings and choices prior to surgery!

The less than pleasing feelings that were now running rampant through the three of us was doing no higher good for anyone involved.  I gave them both a hug through the text-messaging device of the telephone and told them I will be back when he gets out of surgery and again they apologized. 

I sat in my car and asked the universe about this incredibly deep feeling of anger that was inside of me.  I asked for help for it to settle down (feeling I was unjustified in having it to begin with) and I so love the universe, I instantly heard spirit tell me that anger is not bad.  It is your body’s way of telling you something is not right.  Amen!

I did the only thing I could think of doing, I went home and wrote an article about my experience.  I am going to share my article with you minus the name of the hospital he was attending.  I have come to find out that disconnecting family from patients is an ongoing policy raised by fear-implemented policies such as the HIPAA Privacy Act and the Homeland Security gig (whatever that is doing at a hospital).

As I do with any article, I am going to write in the magazine, I took a deep breath in and asked spirit to help me to write it.  This is what unfolded:

At a Loss for Understanding….

Ok, so here I sit scratching my head wondering how the healing profession became so disconnected from the word “family” and “healing”.  My son is currently in pre-op waiting to undergo leg surgery from a broken leg. The hospital said only one person can be with him at time and we do not allow you to switch out.  Huh?  I don’t even get to give him a hug before surgery.  I don’t get to look into his beautiful blue eyes and say I love you and will see you when you wake up.  I cannot, according to a hospital in Newport News, VA. 

None of us knew this going in, or I wouldn’t have stopped off to get my checkbook on the way to the hospital, but then again, they wouldn’t have allowed him to have the surgery if I didn’t give them $860 down. 

What is boggling to me is that the name of this hospital is named after our beloved Blessed Mother, the mother of Jesus.  Jesus was one who knew that family presence and abundant love could facilitate healing quicker and more efficiently than any other presence on earth.  Are our hospitals providing healing and comfort to its patients or have they just become a processing plant? 

Only one person is allowed to hold his hand at any given time, and no switching of the hands is allowed.  No Mom and Dad, no sister and brother, no spouse and child, the patient can only choose one.  I am at such a loss for words that any sort of hospital has taken family out of the scene of healing.  Perhaps the love of family just before and just after surgery really isn’t in their thoughts; they are more worried about privacy (which is what they claimed the reason was that I could not be with my son).  I am so sorry; this is unacceptable behavior for ANY healing facility.

My prayer in this moment as I sit at my computer and my beloved son is undergoing surgery without his mother’s presence (the first time he has not had his mom at his side when he was in ill health in 26 years—no he is not a mama’s boy, just incredibly loved) is that the health industry will one day realize that you can never have too much love and support in your moments of healing, even if that love and support impedes on your sense of efficiency and privacy. 

Love and support are powerful healing forces and our hospitals should never, ever sacrifice these gifts to any of their patients, at least that is my humble opinion!!

May we all come together to change the policies of our healing professions from separation back into Unity, Family and Healing!!

So there I sat with completed article, knowing I was stirring up something on the bigger agenda of spirit (I have been walking this path ceaselessly for nine years, I know how spirit works…smile).  The feeling came to me to give the woman who informed me of the rules of the hospital a copy of it, so I did.  I do want to say that this lady was kind, loving, and just doing her job.

It wasn’t too long afterwards that the Chaplin and another lady (whose title I cannot remember) came to have a talk with me about my article.  They were both very kind, very compassionate in speaking with me.  As they started to explain why the hospital has such a policy I started to see the bigger picture and to understand the foundation of fear in which our Hospitals must now operate.
I remember vividly from being a personal care provider at an Assisted Living Facility in Vermont when the new HIPAA Privacy Act rules came out.  We could no longer even tell a family member (be it a father, mother, son or daughter) who called in to check on their loved one living at the facility, how he or she was doing.

These very nice ladies also uttered something about the Homeland Security rules (in a hospital?) being enforced as well.   They informed me that the patients list their personal privacy as their number one concern in being treated… really?  Why have these patients become so afraid of others?  Ohh yeah, we propagate fear endlessly in the media, and now, we have built Hospitals on that fear-based agenda.  Ouch.

These two ladies from the hospital did give me some food for thought, they invited me to volunteer for a day in the pre-op so I could more closely understand what is taking place (from their perspective of course) and if there were any ideas I could offer to create change.  Hmmmm…. Now there is a thought.

I am glad to say they bent the rules of post-op so both me and Steffi could be with my son as he regained consciousness from his operation.  It breaks my heart to hear the first words out of his mouth were “Mom I am really sorry you couldn’t be here earlier.”  That should not be a recovering patient’s first feeling, it should be of thanks for the love that surrounds them before and after surgery, before and after any event in life.  That is no longer who we are as a Nation, as a Healing Body!  We (collectively) have become so afraid of our shadow that we now fail to realize how important that shadow is!

I woke up the day after my sons operation remembering a single quote that was on my consciousness.  “Be the change you want to see in the world”. By Mahatma Gandhi

I started to think of how I can squeeze some volunteering into my already busy schedule.  As I thought about the volunteering, spirit started to place a phrase from a chapter in my book, “Understanding and Connecting with Your Spiritual Self” into my awareness in relationship with this hospital and most other hospitals as well.  I will share with you the chapter and make bold the phrase that was now being resounded in my heart, the chapter is simply entitled:

FEAR
We are all birthed of the light…
We are all stardust…
We have just forgotten…and covered our light with the cloak of darkness.
This cloak is layer upon layer of fear.
Earth is cloaked in fear.
Earth is a plane of the vibration of fear.
Now then, fear is not just fright….
Or being scared of something in the night…or darkness…
Fear is like a dust particle….made up of a vibration….
A dust particle of fear…is for example, fear of getting wet in the rain….fear of the traffic light turning red before we get to it…fear of running late for work…fear of not being able to find our keys…fear of another whom we think might not like us.

These are the particles that really do not seem the obvious fears. Yet, these are the particles that crystallize in layer upon layer that we cloak ourselves within…mistakenly holding onto the cloak for warmth…and lest we appear naked to others.  And as our cloak builds denser and denser….we vibrate at the vibration of fear. This vibration is like a deep sound that we forget to know is there and grow used to as a companion.
Bringing the light in is our way of forcing pinholes of light through the cracks of fear.  As the light increases, the pinhole turns to a hole…widening the cracks in the folds of the heavy cloak…until pieces of fear start falling off in chunks…revealing the light that was always glowing from within.

This creates the distinctive feeling of changing….and even creates a fear of changing.  We may attempt to “plug” this hole, as it almost seems as if something is “wrong.”  Others may sense the changing and may even move away lest we infect them with this threatening influence upon their warm cloaks of darkness.

The morale of this story…is perhaps to not try to change those obvious fears that we hold…for they are dense and solid…but to concentrate on the dust. Remove those dust particles and the chunks of fear will eventually fall away. Erode the cloak. In order to do this it is necessary to observe those little fears, like the ones in the example that bubble up to the surface and sit, hidden almost, from the mind’s eye. You will be surprised by the intensity and the sheer amount of non-obvious particles of fear you manifest in every moment.

By observing our Self-propelled particles of fear, we have the opportunity to not let them coagulate and thicken upon our cloak of darkness that hides our light, but to cleanse them into shining examples or even release them to allow them to do what they may elsewhere.

Many have been taught to release fear but often do not realize the influence of these particles and the speed they move at to “fix” this crack in the fold replacing it with these tiny, seemingly irrelevant particles.

By learning to observe these small fears, we are able to help facilitate the re-emergence of the light body that lies beneath and the real cloak of light that has always been the true provider of warmth on our life journey.

The thoughts of volunteering was provocative but I was also reminded how dense the fear vibration of the present Health Industry is.  Where fear lives, true and complete healing cannot take place.  Fear is the polar opposite of Love.  All things flourish in love and all things disintegrate in fear.  Ahh... the duality of life!!

I started to realize that the fears of the traditional healing facilities are so dense and solid that one woman’s journey will not break apart decades of building.  So then what should I do, if I can do anything?

The collective mind of spirit, of God is incredible, really.  When it becomes known that the wheel in the framework of humanity’s wellness is broken, do you patch it or make a new one?  Then the download started. (These downloads as I call them is very much like software going into a computer.)  When I get these downloads, I cannot talk or think, or much of anything at all until all the new information has been fully loaded into my consciousness.

In this download of information I could see the potential that existed when many people came together for the same cause.  Everyone of us in one way or another, is completely affected by health care, the current state of the economy and so on.  The theme of this download was Unity and coming together for a greater cause and the higher good of all.

Create a
New Improved Healing Facility with Others Who Can See the
Vision and Are Willing to Help!!

Gulp!  Huh?  I tried to explain to spirit (yeah, I still try to get spirit to be human  and rationalize thru my own humanness lol, it never works!) that we are at the point of printing our last magazine. After March, the money that was there to hold us over is gone, so payroll, rent, those silly little human things will no longer exist.  And spirit just smiled its energetic smile and said, write an article for the magazine; you never know who is going to read it.  Okie dokie pokie. 

Here is a simplified version of what we can do TOGETHER!!

What if…
We all pulled our money collectively to not only help ourselves, but equally, to make it available for others in their time of need.  If someone has a medical need, I now know we can get anywhere from 50% to 75% off the insurance rate, so that is a great thing.  If someone lost their job and needs their mortgage paid so they are not homeless, we would have the money.  If a single mom just can’t come up with the grocery money, we can help.  For the many single people who have needs, but because they are single and fall between the cracks of life, we can be there.  We can help in so many profound ways without depending on the government or others to help.  We can be the help we seek!

If 1000 people pledge $100, that would give us $100,000 of available money to help those in need.  No one would collect a paycheck from these monies, so there is no overhead, no bonuses to be paid out, no anything except available resources for those in need.  All money would be used for its purpose, to help those who need it.  People could walk into medical facilities and be “self-pay” clients, and get a tremendous discount.  This saves everyone a lot of heartache and stress.  The money would be there to cover the expenses of whatever it is that was needed.

What if…
We included awareness as part of these needs.  Some would call this program preventative medicine, but I call it Self Awareness.  If you knew how you worked, and how to work well, the chances of you getting ill would almost be nonexistent.  We could self-fund these programs to those who really need them. 

Think about this for a moment, how many people suffer from a little understood disease called Fibromyalgia.  Through the many Hands of Light sessions I have done over the years, I have come to understand that the muscle structure is simply being starved of vital life force energy.  There is a flow of energy through the body and when you are blocked in many areas, that energy cannot flow, the muscles cannot thrive and pain exists.   When you allow yourself to be permanently unblocked (work you must do within yourself via meditation) then your illness ceases to exist, no more medical visits, no more pills that are hiding the pain and negativity affecting other parts of your wellbeing.

Through my path of Self-understanding over the last nine years and some amazing teachers in the spiritual realm, I have learned how to read people’s DNA.  I often times know what disease or illness is in your future (or current path) and I know why it is there.  If you

could get a heads up before illness shows up and start to make the changes within your life to prevent it, wouldn’t you want to be proactive instead of reactive? Everything starts energetically, never physically.  When we are physically ill, it is simply the outward manifestation of dysfunctional energy enhanced by negative thoughts.

Obviously, I can only do so much having one body to work out of (smile) but I am so willing to teach anyone who wants to learn how to listen to the energetic body and really feel what the client needs to address. 

What if….
We raised enough money to open a school of healing, not only for practitioners, but also for patients as well. 

What if…
We all teamed up to be the Caretakers of each other.  We pooled our resources together and maybe invited whatever healthcare practitioners we could find to make themselves available to those that need their services at a reduced cost.  Perhaps those caretakers can teach or learn the energetic healing ways (depending where they are on their Awareness path) of facilitating complete healing..

What if…
We pooled enough money that we could open our own health care facility and make it fully family and love oriented.  Where love and compassion is the pill prescribed and not disconnection and sterility.  Traditional medicine is very much needed.  We are not looking to discount traditional medicine in any way!  We would just be cutting back on our over dependence on it and explore and develop complete healing environments.

What if…
We were brave enough to come together and BE THE CHANGE WE DESIRED!  Do you not think for a moment that the universe would come rushing to our side to support and enhance that change?!! 

I am only one person.  The Board of Directors is only eight people.  We need so much more than that to come fully alive in thought, vision and reality. 

I am an astute listener for spirit, I speak the words most people cannot hear aloud from the heart of God.  I also have an innate ability to connect to the soul agenda of any human on earth… but these are my strengths and I apply them with all my heart.  There are so many other strengths needed and the willingness to do something, to be involved in whatever way you can so that the Dreamer’s dream can become created creation!  We ALL are the co-creators!!

What we could use presently are some volunteers whose strengths are (in no particular order):
  • Financial Planning
  • Corporate Structure
  • Running a non-profit business
  • Fundraising
  • Grant seekers
  • Grant Writers
  • Gardeners
  • Janitors
  • Medical Professionals
  • Researchers
  • Monetary Angels

am sure there are more skills needed than mentioned, but if I don’t know what they are (maybe you do) it is hard for me to list them.

I am going to be putting together a brochure that is simply entitled “The Vision” and it will be available for mailing or download to anyone who wants to be an active part of where we are going in whatever way you can be of assistance.

We can really become the change that is needed in the healing field; no. in the Living field, to make healing permanent instead of temporary but with only eight people and very limited (current moment here) resources, it can only remain a dream… a potential that can touch the world and truly bring in permanent and safe healing on all levels.

If nothing else, let me be your example of potential, of hope, of what can and will be.  I am supported by an endless source of love and companionship in the spiritual realm that brought me to here, and now I need that same love and companionship, the same level of service, in the human realm.  We are family, we are more powerful and resourceful than you can imagine!  Together, we can Be the Change we dream of!

In spirit’s eyes, there is no such thing as a dream that is too big.  If we can dream it, we can create it!  If you want to be in service in anyway, please contact Peggy or me at 757-223-7224.  If you would like to donate to the Random Acts of Charitable Kindness program, please go to spiritualhealing-godsway.org/rack. You can donate from $1 to $5000 or you can always mail a check to The Foundation for Conscious Living, 12616 Warwick Blvd. Newport News, VA 23606. 

One of the things we are really trying to manifest this year is the Deed to the property where we are now located.  The building is for sale, and in order to facilitate the many things we want to become, we have to own the building.  I know in my heart, it is already done!

Please check the above named webpage for a PDF version of “The Vision” brochure or email us to snail mail you a copy.  I should have this brochure done by 4/6/09.

With so much love, honor and complete joy to all! 

Namaste,
Lisa Gawlas 
Dreamer and Co-Creator!

An Ouija Board, Meditations, Profound Healing
Lisa's Personal Journey
“Be the change you want to see in the world.” Mahatma Gandhi
What if we all came together to Create True and Absolute Healing for each other??

We can all sit back and say, “Ohhh this needs to change, that needs to change” and then wait for someone to actually do it.  At this moment in time, that is how the majority of people are, not because they are lazy (although some are) but because they are not sure what to do, and how to go about doing it.

When I embarked on this journey of being Wide Awake (spiritually speaking) in a human body, I realized that there was something seriously lacking in our psychology profession and  all I wanted to do was introduce the world of meditation (as I knew it) to anyone who felt they needed some help in life.

Learning How to Not be Depressed and Ill

I suffered from manic depression (now known as bi-polar disorder) for the majority of my life.  I was not diagnosed with it, but I do know what made me tick (at least from this current perspective).  The only thing I was ever diagnosed with was Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome by a psychologist I was seeing in 2000. 

I had serious bouts of rage with violence, I had attempted suicide five times in my life starting at the age 13 (actually more than that, but those were significant times where I actually took enough pills to get me very sick).  I had gallbladder disease by the time I was 30 and when that area of my body was removed, I developed raging ulcers from hell in place of the gallbladder pain.

I suffered from S.A.D. (Seasonal Affective Disorder) which made my winter depressions even worse!!  For those unfamiliar with this disorder it is describe like this:
With seasonal affective disorder, fall’s short days and long nights may trigger feelings of depression, lethargy, fatigue and other problems. Don’t brush this off as simply a case of the “winter blues” that you have to tough out on your own.

Seasonal affective disorder is a type of depression, and it can severely impair your daily life.

To say insomnia plagued my life would be an understatement.  That is the mind though, it stays awake and amplifies the worry that is on one’s mind.

I spent 30 years in and out of a psychologist’s office, even admitted myself into a psychiatric  hospital to try and figure out why I was no longer in love with my (then) husband. 

Emotionally, I truly was a mess.  I must say this again, God Bless my children for having survived me! 

Every time I was in “therapy”, we rehashed my childhood over and over again.  Blah!!!  Let me tell you, not every sad experience, not every dysfunction is due to a less than pleasing childhood.  Of course, I never knew any of that until I started to learn how to meditate and learned how to call on the incredibly loving Beings that have guided and protected me through my human incarnation. 

I do want to say up-front, I am grateful for the many therapists who talked me out of suicide.  I must thank Parents Anonymous for their incredible support in just allowing me to know I am not the only angrily insane parent who loves their children more than life itself, yet would slap a 5 month old and leave hand marks on her precious face.  Yes, I did that.  I also immediately placed my children in temporary foster care for fear I would hurt them more.

When I read about a parent who has severely injured their child, I can totally understand how they could have done that.  When one is out of control with the raging anger within them, nothing is impossible because you are truly out of control with yourself.

Change comes through an Ouija Board

At age 38, I was back into a severe depression.  By now my children’s behavior went awry between my oldest finding drugs and my youngest finding thievery and I knew something had to change and change quickly.  But how?

Who knew that change would be coming through an Ouija Board?  It did.  That evening with the Ouija Board changed the rest of my life in such a profound way.  It equally changed my children’s lives in the most amazing, uplifting way.  Of course, I knew none of this going in.  All I know is that from somewhere deep within me, I had to have an Ouija Board NOW.  That was 11/11/00 and it just happened to be the evening of a full moon.  I made my own board, and with an amazing ease of use, an entity named Jill Cadee started telling us of her past life in Iceland in the 1600’s. 
For eight hours, Jill talked to us through a pudding cup and plastic board letters.  She told me she had been with me for five years, since my divorce, and her role was to “protect you crash.”  Yeah, I lived the party life when I divorced my